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I read an article in Family Circle about how a chance remark made 19 years ago to a young girl affected her whole life.  It was a kind remark made by a stranger and it made such an impression on her, she never forgot it and whenever she was feeling down she would remember it.  I don’t remember what it was about, but the point of the story was how what we say, sometimes without even thinking about it, can change someone’s whole life.  I find myself recalling hurtful comments from my childhood, I can’t believe that after 60+ years they still have the power to make me feel sad.  Small kindness have the same power.  Something to think about before I open my mouth….I would rather be the sunshine in someones memory than a nasty cloud.

People are so judgmental, and to be honest, I have caught myself looking at someone (fatter than me, of course) and thinking those very thoughts I hate.  ie   “She would be so pretty if……”or  “Oh my God, why is she wearing those pants in public?”  I hate that I do it, but it happens.  Human nature, just like Mother nature, isn’t always nice.  And so unfair.   Now that I am aware of this awful truth, maybe I can be strong enough to overcome it…?  I sure intend to try, but sometimes those unkind thoughts just pop into my head before I can stop them.

Tiffany gave us some helpful tips on the Heartbreakers thread in forum yesterday. This one is one we have all heard many times, but actually making a fist and holding it over my plate last night (John couldn’t figure that one out… lol) to remind myself that my stomach is only the size of my fist and a handful of food should fill it was really a help at dinner last night. Instead of sitting down, looking at my “little kid size” plate and thinking “Is this all?” I thought, “Well, this should be more than enough”. And it was….12 shrimp scampi, yes cooked in 1 T. butter & 1 T. white wine with a splash of lime juice and a little garlic….. ahhhh, and a small salad. Chocolate mousse for dessert! (1/2 cup made with f.f. Cool Whip and s.f. f.f choc pudding mix) It was heavenly! (and less than 600 calories)

and I stay that way all day.    I love singing in the choir.  Just putting on the choir robe makes me feel so angelic and just plain good.    It’s the only day of the week that I don’t even consider doing anything to undermine my new healthy lifestyle.  I am positively saintly!  I know that if I die on a Sunday, I will go straight to Heaven.  Won’t even have to go through customs or check in at the gate.  It’s a good thing I don’t feel like this everyday…no one would be able to stand me.  lol    Well, don’t really have much to say, I guess being all this good is kind of boring.  But I’ll be back to my devilish self tomorrow, fighting the food demons again for yet another week. 

If you know me, you know I live across from a logging road.  It runs from the Weyerhaeuser Mill (about 3 miles from here) past our house, on another 1/2 mile to Cottage Grove Lake and Lord knows how far after that.  To the great Pacific Northwest Forests I guess.  Anyway, it’s blacktop, fairly level and has pastoral scenery, a river runs along it, it passes the lake there is a dairy at one point and fields of sheep, horses, cows and geese…..just a perfect place to walk.   Or run, if you’re my daughter…. You do have to listen for the logging trucks.  They take up most of the road and are BIG and LOUD, which is good because you have a lot of warning they’re coming.  ANYway, enough rambling, I have recently started wogging and so now my whole family calls it the ‘wogging road’.  They all sound like Elmer Fudd.   lol    Today was my 3rd day wogging, you should only do it every other day, and it is wonderful.  Really gets the heart rate up and makes me sweat!  (I’m proud, oh yeah!)  It used to take me almost 40 minutes to walk a mile….now I wog it in 20 min.  For me that is a miracle.  I can’t wait to go Tuesday.  (Tues, Wed, Thurs & Sat are wogging days)  Can you tell I love that word?..lol    I am curious to weigh-in (I’m a Heartbreaker) next Sat. and see if it boosts my losses.  I’ll let you know.   Oh yeah, I almost forgot….I got my blue star back this week!!!   I had a slight mishap last week (gained 2 lbs) and it was taken away immediately.  

My sweetie, John  and I had plans this afternoon, he was coming home early and  we were going to do something special .  (no, not that,  just a show we had planned on watching together)  We had an unexpected, fairly clear afternoon and our son called and wanted him to go play golf………..of course I didn’t mind.  I love that they enjoy each others company.  BUT as soon as they left I started that old mind-game crap ‘poor me, what can I eat’.  It will be his fault for going off and leaving me in all alone, right?  It’s not my fault…..I wouldn’t have done it if he had stayed home with me.  So it’s his fault…in fact it’s so much his fault he should be the one getting fat.  lol   See, now that I’m typing it I can see how ridiculous that whole line of reasoning is.  It’s true, what my daddy said, I’m my own worst enemy.  Well, now I intend to be my own best friend.  That will be my motto from now on…..I’M MY OWN BFF     :)    or    IMOBFF 

Yesterday I was tearing my hair out because I couldn’t download podrunner interval trainer to my mp3 player.  My son came over this morning and was going to do it for me, but he said “Mom, it’s already on there.”  I had downloaded it and didn’t even know it.  So now I have a new trick…..AND I used it today.   You all who know me know I HATE exercise, and especially exercise that makes me sweat!  Well, I did it, and got all sweaty, and guess what?  I LOVED IT!!!   Yes it was hard, I thought those 1 minute ‘jacked up’ intervals would never end.  lol  In fact the 4 min. slow intervals were way faster than I usually walk.  I did not jog the fast part…I don’t think my joints would take it so I did race walking to the beat instead. (yeah, that funny kind with your arms bent and swinging high, but no one saw me.  I was out on the logging road.)  Now I just can hardly wait til Fri.  You’re only supposed to do it every other day, and just three days a week.  So I guess I really learned two new tricks…not bad.   ps….bonus,  John said I looked real cute with my cheeks all red.

Since I retired 4 years ago, after a lifetime of getting up every week day for school or work, I have had a hard time keeping track of Saturday and Sunday.  If my sweet husband wasn’t still working it would be much worse,  but since I pack him a lunch everyday I pretty much know which days are weekdays.  But then along comes a day like today…he was off.  Now all day I’ve been thinking I have choir practice and church in the morning, until I read Julie’s blog about work today and how busy she was.  I still get up at 5am everyday, just like I used to.  I remember when my kids were little I used to dream about how I would sleep ’til noon when they were grown……ha.   Doesn’t happen.  My inner clock says “time to get up” at 5, and that’s all there is to it.  Sorry to ramble on….don’t really have much to say BUT I promised to blog every day til Thursday and so here it is.  At least it didn’t snow today, but I didn’t walk…after all, it was Sunday, right. lol.  Well, that’s all folks.  Have a good night, see you all tomorrow.  I’ll try to be more interesting. 

I found podrunner and downloaded the ‘interval training’ to my computer…..now to figure out how to get it on my mp3 player. I am so learning new things, hardly had time to obsess about food today. I think I will enjoy this new ‘wogging’ thing…..I think I am too old to start jogging but I plan to use the ‘change up’ to race walk instead of jog.  That should get my heart rate up without stressing my knees …. BUT I am about to  @##!%^&#!!!!   Can not figure out how to download from my pc to mp3 player.  Neither can John, guess I’ll have to have my son do it and he won’t be back from visiting his son in Bend for a couple of days.    AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!  (that’s me pulling my hair out)

I called the 1-800 number to find out for sure, so don’t panic.